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01.06.2005 | 2:46 am i do believe i'm getting to the point where i cannot handle my doses. i took lortab, again, because man, i love it. it calms me down & makes me feel so mellow. only now, i cant feel my heartbeat & my arms feel weird & tingly. on top of that, my visions slightly fucked. i made a pact with jessefer to reamina sober, but he has to as well. it was his idea. NOT MINE, i think im dying. or i feel bad enough to want to, i remeinscensd about shaunns tonight. she was fun while she lasted, but now she has child. i'm glad i don't havea baby. &&& i don'tthink it's healthy for your head to hurt so godamned baad when you're jacked up on painkillers..but it does. my my my,oh my, i'm happy. & iy's all your fault, boy. boyfried. how unsual. i shall sleep now. i love you. |
