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I'm rich, biotch! - Dave Chapelle
08.19.2004 | 2:27 am I have nothing to say. My phone's been off the hook for the pasy 3 nights/days so if you've called me and got beeped, oops! I like James. I plan on calling him every day & have done this since Monday, but every day I fall asleep. Someone call me, wake me up, & demand I call James. 'Preciate it. I went to Meridian yesterday. I had fun with my mom. I probably should have called someone to see if they wanted to hang out, but I kind of like being with my mom & my mom only, plus I didnt really feel like being annoyed. I bought a many splendid things at Dirt Cheap. This beautiful black & pink plaid dress that's ripped, but I'll either sew it or remove the black fishnet material beneath it & make a skirt. I was going to buy another shirt that had what looked to be ...crows on it, but it was $7, so I declined. I did buy The Cure cassette though. Two bands with mucho potential to become a favorite - The Cure & Braid. I've decided that I want 4 more piercings in my ears, my eybrow twice, and my lip. Then, I shall be done. Which reminds me of this hilarious thing I saw on Cartoon Newtwork a few days ago - It was an advertisement for the Grim Adventures of Billy & Mandy, okay? Grim jumps out of a refridgerator and tried to scare this kid, but they both scream and Grim says "What's wrong with your face?" and the kid turns around and had metal up the wazoo and says "Dude, I'm fifteen ... we all looks like this." and walks off. This amuses me to no end. None! I feel like such a bad personl, but I don't feel too bad about it. Understand? I don't either. It seems like the more considerate I try to be of others the more hurt I get, so tomorrow - today - whatever - I'm telling Chris that I am not with him. I'm with no one, because I want it that way. I do not want to be in a selfish, controlling, manipulative, unhealthy relationship ever again! I'll just date 'til I die. Mentally picture this, okay. Damien said when he returns he's taking me out to do whatever I want for a full night, with whomever I want to take. We'll leave at 6 and come in whenever... My plans were to drive around Meridian at sunset & take pictures of all those places that intrigue me. Hit up the Underground because they will be having a show. Go to BAM & rot our minds for a good hour or so. Find a pretty fountain to dance in & have my way with it. Change clothes. Go bowling. Hang out at the truck stop & hustle truckers. And then let me & me alone get drunk from vodka shots until I puke. Go to the church parking lot & let me have my peace with god. Then home. I'm tryign to figure out who would be more fun to take with me - Heather, Amanda, Shaunna, or Falon. Or all of the above. Damien likes Heather, so that's the only reason she would have of coming. Amanda's more fun than a chicken with a broken leg. Shaunna would drink all my vodka & run off to have sex with the truckers. Falon would probably stand around and laugh at me all night. Not a bad thing though, I do like making people laugh. Now for the manly part, Who shall be my "date?" I want a boy who will get nakie and dance with me in a fountain and tell the cops when we get "arrested" that he was just tryign to be romantic & we'll leave immediately and then we run off together laughing. I want a boy who'll hold my hair back when I get sick and puke. I want a boy who will laugh at me when he finds out that I bowl like a granny. I want a boy who will tell me that I'm the most fun they've ever had. Dear god, I just want to means something to somebody. I forgot how good it felt to be single. I also forgot the loneliness of it. You may not have been everything that I wanted. You may not have been everything that I needed. You may not have been everything I was looking for, but you were all I had. Think about it, bitches! |
