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He might be a really nice guy, but I only like girls.
01.18.2004 | 10:39 pm I slept most of today and woke up 7:30-ish. I had multiple weird dreams. I've spent the last 3 hours talking to Amanda. I really miss her. I might go bowling with her next weekend for her birthday party, but I don't know. It's already her birthday and I haven't even given her what I got her for Christmas. I feel dumb. I think I get my jollies from hearing people insult me. It makes me feel accomplished. It makes me feel like if I can't do anything else in the world, I can get under people's skin. I want my ears pierced and Brittany says Wal-Mart's things are rusty and Heather said Claire's hurts. I tried twice to do it myself, but I'm a bitch and can't take the pain. It doesn't really hurt that bad, but once I start thinking about the fact that I have a needle poking in my ear, I get scared. I think I'd be okay with somebody else doing it. Anybody want to pierce me? I'm a slob. S-L-O-B. I haven't showered. I don't plan on it either. I'm cool with my dirtyness. I just realized how often I say things without thinking about it. It makes me look stupid. [Example] Amanda was telling me about how she has Bellsouth and AOL, so when her grandpa's online she can still talk on AIM and I said "I wish I had that too" and she asked me why and I didn't know. I just said it. I don't have any use for that. I just needed to say something, I guess. I have a nasally dork laugh when I think something is really funny. Amanda used to make fun of me. God, I really miss hanging out with her. This was longer than I expected it to be. Justin was gonna call at 10:00, but I kind of didn't want to talk to him then, so I just left the internet on. Oh well. I needed time to cool off.
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